Wow, so it’s been a while. Since January 23rd to be exact. I have no excuse for taking so long to write another blog post other than the fact that this past semester was hella busy and kinda kicked my rear a little. Internship, classes, work, and a bunch of life changes. All the time span of five months. I’m not going to sugar coat it. Y’all, my life has been a constant stop-and-go. I actually had to put my daily schedule on my google calendar, so I knew where I was supposed to be at what time. Not only that, but I have like three different planners to keep up with school stuff, work stuff, and misc stuff. It’s freaking crazy. But I’m not complaining–not in the slightest. Because even though crap has been chaotic, there’s been some pretty amazing things enter my life here recently.
I can’t wait to break everything down and explain it from the beginning. So obviously this calls for another blog series.
Introducing…
{ A Grand Life }
In the last five months I’ve become a bridesmaid to my best friend, got a rib tat (don’t recommend it at all) and some wildflowers, met a wonderful guy, took a mini vacay in Florida, saw Thomas Rhett live, got a “big girl” job, bought my dream car, and so much more. This all sounds grand, which it totally was, but throughout the last five months, I’ve also experienced some major bumps in the road, insecurities I didn’t know I had, and crazy life problems that all have taught me so much about myself and what it truly means to be an adult.
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- Purchasing a used vehicle is as eerie as it sounds. I’ll give you some pointers that I learned throughout my experience.
- Good things do come when you decide to be patient and trust the universe. And, boy, do I have a story for y’all. *insert cheesy smile here*
- Respecting yourself and who you are is important. I’ll tell you why I think so.
- The beach has the power to cure just about any foul mood I’m in.
- Live music is always the best option.
- It’s okay to be scared when entering a new relationship with someone.
- There are two types of people in the world that will enter your life: those that are there for that specific season, and those that come in and root themselves in. I’ll tell you how I learned the difference.
A trip down memory lane: A year ago today, literally one year ago, I was sitting on a boat with my parents and my ex. Dad was unreeling his pole and Mama was laying out on her chair. He was sitting in the corner with his nose in his phone, not really paying attention to much. I was looking out across the water, my arm dangling off the side of the boat, as it mirrored the overcast sky. Country music was playing in the background while Dad rambled on about why this particular spot was a good place to catch fish. Mama and I was smiling at him. And then soon everything got quiet as the sun poked out from behind the clouds. Dad sunk down and sat next to Mama as she tipped her head back on her chair and closed her eyes. I gave them one last smile and looked in the direction of my husband, at the time. One word comes to mind when I reflect on that particular moment: vacant. I turned my head away and stared down at the reflection of the sun shining like glass on the surface of the water, and even though it was bright and beautiful, I felt so defeated and lost in that moment.
It’s funny how much life changes. I look back on that version of myself and tear up a little, b/c I want to go back in time and tell her things are going to be okay; that life is about to rip you apart, but then put you back together in the most beautiful way. I’d tell her a lot more, but for the most part I’d just assure her that she’s going to get everything she ever wanted; especially out of love.
I know, I know. I’m getting a little too mushy. So I’m going to rein in a little.
Point is, I am so proud of all of the things I’ve faced and learned in the last five months (in the last year, really). Life has been a wild adventure, that’s for sure, but with classes out for the summer, work a little more at ease, and my schedule calmer than usual, I am finally at a place where I can take a breath and put my words in actual coherent sentences.
Randi Garner 